The Delirium Of Life (Lyrics)

I am so alone,
I am abandoned and condemned,
My lover has recently left me,
And since then I have started
To drink and to smoke,
Even to start using drugs

Lying, crying, I am in bed now,
And around me reigns the stench of tobacco,
It is smoke, it is smoke,
Alone I lie, seeing my life turned into ash

Lying, crying, there is no one beside me,
To tell me”I love you” or, even simpler”I care for you”
The days pass, I am more and more alone,
My frail body is gradually ground,
By the mill of black death
That whistles morbidly

I have waited long enough,
I no longer even know If it is dream or reality,
And I fall from the bed again

The image of my lover, angelic creature,
I see her coming towards me with a knife in her hand,
Does she want to end my life’s suffering? No!
It was only a chimera, a dream, or a desire

But behold, a thought haunts me now,
That I will not see my beloved again
Before I am ash,
And I suffer deeply, unceasingly

Now that I feel only pain,
Surrounded by walls of silence,
I wish from my soul, at the end of the road,
For a caress.. But I feel only pain,
It is silence, it is smoke, it is.. ash..